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Its almost Winter

Fall has passed in no time and looks like Winter is on its way.  Personally I am praying for a very mild Winter.  I am not a fan of Winter to begin with unless I'm in Southern California.  Or way far South where its warm.  

So I wanted to update on Ms. Abigaile.  My husband and I havent been able to speak so I have no details but I have some pictures.  Abigaile has surely grown in the past few months.  I had planned on posting more pictures previous but have not been able to get them to upload on here. 

Family Blogspot here:

So I am posting our family blogspot so that you can see her photo there.  I have work so hopefully I will be able to post another time. 

I also will have a surprise to offer once I am finished with creating it.

much love and blessings,

Paris ( Abigailes mom )

Happy Birthday beautiful girl

I remember this day 14 years ago as if it were today.  Except that day I had a heart full of Joy and was so excited that my princess was going to be born soon I think I actually put myself into labor.  

I couldnt sleep and I lay awake all night ( after painting floors to get the house ready for you). I remember sleeping with your ultrasound photo on my chest and while I was looking at magazines so I could try and sleep some I just couldnt get you out of my mind.  I wanted another baby so bad so I could care for you.  I had no idea what that meant then but I know that CARE now.  

I woke at 3 am to contractions and couldnt go back to sleep. I woke your dad and told him i needed to go to the hospital.  We woke Natascha and took her to her friends house so she could go to church at Elmdale Baptist and tell everyone she was going to be a big sister. She was so proud.  

I remember you were born at 11 am and then then it became hectic from that day on. We had no idea what God had in store for any of us.  You have always been a high maintenance princess and I hope that you stay that way "high maintenance"  I cant imagine any other way for a child of God.  

A child who knows no anger and who knows no wrath. Even when people have treated you badly, ignored you and pretended your story didnt exist we were there and God has always been here.  

I miss you Princess and I love you very much I hope and pray that Jesus blesses your day today no matter where you are. 

I love you more than life itself and would gladly give my life for you,


your one and only mommy

The life of parents who face special needs

  I recently experienced some adversity in a big way.  This comes from having lots of trauma in your life. Im not the only one I share a home with others who have experience adversity and trauma as well. 

So how do you deal with it? Having some conflict in relationships or having conflict in your marriage? its almost impossible not to when you deal with traum whetehr its a close family member or may even a distant family member. It might just be a friendship. Anyways this is something I recently experienced and Ive just now been able to put it together so that I can write about it. 

It is really difficult sometimes to maintain a straight thought when going through trails, adversity or trauma. I want to share with you my journey with God on how this was resolved. I pray that you are blessed by this. Please take this in if you feel overwhelmed. I had so many people telling me that I needed rest. I didnt get it until it was too late. Im not going into details but the Father saved me. To God be the glory. I am thankful and I am blessed. So while we are quiet in the medical world of craziness Im here to say we as parents must simplfy our lives. We have this craziness of our kids going on. Its okay. Sometimes we as parents need time out and we need renewed. This is how I did it. 

I wanted to say thank you to all of you who prayed, wished me well, and for those who thanked me for sharing God on Fathers Day. He is our Father and a very special Father. I have seen that video several times and I have been blessed many times by watching it so Im glad that you were blessed that accomplished what I set out to do. 

So Here is the link for my other blog. It is our family blog. I wanted to share it on there so that different people coiuld see it. 

Once we have God in control again then everything else can fall into place. It may take some time but you will be a lot happier if you start with yourself.

be blessed 

with love,

Paris ( Abigaile and Nataschas momma )

Happy Fathers Day

 Im reminded of Fathers Day.  This year just as hurtful as the year my dad passed away.  This world is just not my home.  I miss my daddy so much the pain hasn't completely gone away I don't think it ever will.  My dad was such a good man. He was honest, full of love, had patience beyond understanding, had Joy talking to people, was kind and gentle to everyone he met. Im not sure he ever met a stranger. I seldom saw him lose self -control. Most of all my daddy loved our family. 

 I would like to wish my husband Allen and dad of our two girls Happy Fathers day also. 

  I did want to wish all the Fathers out there Happy Fathers Day.  

 I do want to share this Fathers Day card with everyone though. Its really special because this Father is in Heaven and hopefully very soon we will see Him.  


Fathers Love Letter


My Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you.   Psalm 139:1 

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.   Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.   Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.   Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.   Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.   Acts 17:28 

For you are my offspring.    Acts 17:28 

I knew you even before you were conceived.   Jeremiah 1:4-5 

I chose you when I planned creation.  Ephesians 1:11-12 

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book.   Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live.   Acts 17:26 

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.   Psalm 139:14 

I knit you together in your mother's womb.   Psalm 139:13 

And brought you forth on the day you were born.   Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me.   John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love.  1 John 4:16 

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.   1 John 3:1 

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father.   1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.   Matthew 7:11 

For I am the perfect father.   Matthew 5:48 

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.   James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.   Matthew 6:31-33 

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.   Jeremiah 29:11 

Because I love you with an everlasting love.   Jeremiah 31:3 
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore.  Psalm 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.   Zephaniah 3:17 

I will never stop doing good to you.   Jeremiah 32:40 

For you are my treasured possession.  Exodus 19:5 

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul.   Jeremiah 32:41 

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.   Jeremiah 33:3 

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me.   Deuteronomy 4:29 

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart.   Psalm 37:4 

For it is I who gave you those desires.   Philippians 2:13 

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine.   Ephesians 3:20 

For I am your greatest encourager.   2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles.   2 Corinthians 1:3-4 

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you.   Psalm 34:18 

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart.   Isaiah 40:11 

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes.   Revelation 21:3-4 

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth.   Revelation 21:3-4 

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus.    John 17:23 

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.    John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.   Hebrews 1:3 

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you.    Romans 8:31 

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.    2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.    2 Corinthians 5:18-19 

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you.   1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love.    Romans 8:31-32 

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me.    1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again.   Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.   Luke 15:7 

I have always been Father, and will always be Father.    Ephesians 3:14-15 

My question is…Will you be my child?     John 1:12-13 

I am waiting for you.    
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God

Thank you for Gifts for Abigaile

Thank you for the gifts and loving not just our Abigaile, but Natascha and our family ! 

I would load some pictures but currently am having issues with sizing the photos and loading. My husband is the techie and good in this area. I am much more challenged with it. Im sure he feels Im a nag when I come to him with all this. 

I can talk and do other things but I just want it to work ( the techie stuff) I dont care how it gets there. LOL My husband is detailed, loves to work with his hands, and has patience. Im believing that prayer of when God tells you to seek God first and all other things will be added unto you. Matthew 6:33 33 But seek first his Kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

The Coles Foundation Tshirt I know she will love advertsing her favorite foundation. Coles family has shown us the trus love of God we are so thankful . When our family had so many trials Coles has been there for us. Thank you. 

The next gift is the hair things. Abigaile is so fascinated with hair things. As you can tell in most of her photos she has hair things all the time. She has figured out how to remove them though and hands them to momma or her big sister. Its a new skill and great OT.  So we let her do it. Occasionally.  

Kids Unite to Fight bracelets. Very cool. One of Abigailes new favorite things has been bracelets. Great for Big sister ( Natascha ) too and I know she will be proud to wear. Her big sister( Natascha) is her biggest advocate. She is old enough now ( a big 13) so she doesnt put things in her mouth anymore to taste them. 

A keychain for her sister ( Natascha)  ( she will love) I know she is looking forward to getting those car keys very soon. Momma and her dad will be praying ALOT. 

Comfort and Joy CD.  Abigaile loves music it is really one of her favorite things. She loves music and musicals. It defintiely makes her happy. I know she will get some Joy from this. 

A book about insects - this will be good for momma and sister to point out insect to her with her home school. Its always good to learn the "good bugs" from the "bad bugs".

Another book that says Take Heart my Child A Mothers Dream. I know Abigaile will love her mommy, daddy and big sister reading this to her - over and over and over again. Thank God there are three of us so we each don't get burned out. ** HInt Dr Seuss I will never forget the feet. 

And the doll clothes.  The shirt says Happy. I will say that Abigaile is always happy. 

She has always been happy around her dad, her sister and her momma.  

She can be having the worst day ever. Seizures. No sleep. The things that would make most of us really be grumpy and sad about. Not Abigaile. She is always happy. 

Thank You Coles Foundation for the card - your cards, letters, emails and now gifts. Always make us smile. 

with love, 

Allen, Paris , Natascha ( big sister) and Abigaile Kiss